Two Week Wait

The mystery of the two week wait—oh how I’d love to know what’s going on in there! Has our embryo found itself I nice spot to implant? Is it continuing to grow?

My intention is to hold these questions with curiosity rather than fear. It’s okay to wonder and hope but it’s not healthy to project or obsess.

The two week wait (for me, the time between embryo transfer and a confirmed pregnancy test) can be teeming with questions, fears, and anxiety. If you know my history, you understand that I have plenty of reasons to be fearful. Yet this time can also be a space of curiosity, hope, presence, and self-care.

I woke up this morning with a feeling of doubt—what if this cycle fails again? How will I feel? The @mindfulIVFmeditation that I listen to reminded me that these thoughts are completely normal and aren’t a predictor of outcome. I visualized these fearful thoughts becoming smaller and further away from me until I could no longer see them and instead focused on my breath and the potential for new life inside my body.

Regardless of the outcome of our two week wait, I want to look back and say that I enjoyed it—that I was present and at peace. It might seem outrageous but I know it’s possible!

Things I’m doing during my two week wait:
• daily 10-min meditation
• naps
• time with family and friends who build me up
• prayers for peace
• eating healthy and yummy food (so far that’s included vegetarian tacos, pizza, burgers, and chocolate! )
• watching uplifting movies and tv shows
• creative projects
• journaling
• snuggles with my doggie and husband
• avoiding “symptom spotting” and Google
• not testing early

Though fearful thoughts will inevitably float through my mind, what I know today is that my body, mind, and heart are taken care of and a little piece of the mystery will soon enough be unveiled.